Your natal Jupiter is your good luck charm! Your natal Saturn is where you’ll suffer!

Well, these statements have some truth in them.

But they sell both planets short.

To say Jupiter is just about luck is to misuse its energy! To waste it.

To say Saturn is just hardship and suffering is to neglect a major source of strength and potential mastery within you.

If you know my Astrological work at all, you know that I love Saturn. You also know that I have a soft spot in my heart and soul for the feared and misunderstood parts of Astrology. And you’ll know that I love sharing fresh perspectives!

(My Aquarius stellium just has to be different! And my 12th House stellium just has to favour the misunderstood energies!)

Have you ever waited for Jupiter’s ‘luck’ to reach you, but it didn’t?

Are you afraid of Saturn because you’ve heard mostly bad things?

Are you dreaming of starting something big, purposeful and ‘delusional', but you’re afraid?

Well, you’re in the right place. This essay will answer those questions and give you a boost to make those big moves!

Because delusion, meeting the Universe halfway and faith (Jupiter) + commitment, patience and mastery (Saturn) = epic life changes. Epic internal shifts.

Let’s go!

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But you’re a 12th Houser, and you don’t want to leave the safety of your cave.

You’re SPIRALLING over the idea of being misunderstood. You’re SPIRALLING over the idea of having to capitalise on what’s sacred to you.

Over the idea of having to be ‘on’ all the time. Available. Hyper-visible.

Because we’re taught that visibility is the new online currency, right?

But what if I told you there’s a way for you to be seen without selling your soul? Without going against your own user manual?

Well, 12th Houser, it’s true. There is a way. Let me tell you how.

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PAST LIFE KARMA // THE WITCH WOUND 🩸

12th House placements represent what you didn’t quite ‘get right’ in a past life, so you’re given another chance.

Light stuff, hey.

And, guess what? It’s. Not. Fucking. Easy.

Because, yes, you’ve been given some epic past life gifts! Your next-level imagination! Intuition! Compassion. Prophetic dreams, perhaps.

You’ve also been given the deep fears, though.

The limiting patterns. The addictions. The pain of being misunderstood. The projections. The loneliness.

So, do you get why this ‘being seen’ issue hasn’t been a one-and-done thing for you?

You’re different. You see things differently. You see things others can’t see. Things they say are made-up. Nonsense. You know: the unseen.

And what happened (still happens in a very real way in certain places) to people who were deemed different? What happened to people whose gifts and ways of living didn’t fit the ‘norm’?

They were persecuted. There were consequences.

The 12th House is a place where the Witch Wound lives. Unseen, but deeply felt.

The fear of being misunderstood, cancelled, projected upon, locked away.

So, it’s easier to be invisible than to be visible yet not truly seen.

Right?

P.S. The Witch Wound lives in a few other places in the birth chart, too!

^from my Witch Wound research! If you want to dive deeper, I highly recommend the audiobook Heal the Witch Wound by Celeste Larsen.

LOCKED AWAY

I bet you’ve heard that prisons live in the 12th House. Cue panic!

Whoa, whoa, wait. Let me explain.

It doesn’t mean you’re going to be imprisoned.

It means (in most cases) that you’ve imprisoned yourself.

Past experiences of being misunderstood have led you to lock yourself away. And you’ve thrown away the key.

Your mind is the prison. You are the prison guard bashing on the railings. And your real self is locked inside. Desperate to get out, yet also afraid of what life will be like when you are finally released.

This prison isn’t easy to escape from. And perhaps instead of even trying to, you just hide. It’s easier.

Perhaps you choose to escape into books, movies, spirituality, substances instead of actually breaking free.

Side note: I love escapism! And 12th Housers do need healthy escapism! So, I’m not shitting on it as a whole, but it’s a very sneaky way of keeping yourself numbed out vs. connected to your intuition.

Shadows = safety.

Unhealthy escapism or avoidance = safety.

Hiding in the cave = safety.

Visibility = AHHHH.

But what if you decided to unlock the cell? Unlock the cage?

Not fully. Not in a way that goes against the very real side of you that needs to remain sacred. Not in a fake way.

In your way.

The 12th Houser Way.

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CHOOSE YOUR VISIBILITY // SACRED PRIVACY ⚔️

You get to choose how visible you are.

You get to choose what remains sacred.

You get to decide to stop following social media advice that just doesn’t work for you! You’ve tried. You’ve thought you’re a failure because you can’t do it like that other person.

Oh, I know this feeling. I even set myself a challenge of posting on my stories every day, just to prove that I could do it. Just to prove that I could be consistent!

~ I’m gonna touch on ‘consistency’ and devotion in the next section! ~

And it taught me so much about what visibility looks like for me. How it does and doesn’t work for me.

I’m a 12th Houser (Aquarius Venus, Mars, Saturn and Black Moon Lilith 🤪) who is visible on social media. It’s the primary source of my livelihood.

Yet much of my life is a total mystery to my community.

And it’s not that I try to be mysterious (well, maybe I do. The 12th House is the house of our subconscious, after all!). It’s not that I believe people sit around and think of how mysterious I am!

But the truth is that there are many parts of me I don’t share online. Beliefs. Ways of living. Interests. Thoughts.

Mystery can actually be a source of your magnetism as a 12th Houser.

I would not advise a 12th Houser to let everything be seen.

I would not advise them to let people into every aspect of their life.

Because whatever is in your 12th House must remain partially private, yet also partially seen.

It’s a ‘choose your fighter’ situation. Well, a ‘choose your visibility, whilst being honest about why you’re not letting that specific thing be seen’ situation.

The questions all 12th Housers must ask when deciding what to keep private whilst sharing online are:

• Am I not sharing this because it’s sacred to me, and I want to keep it that way?

• Am I not sharing this because I’m ashamed of it?

• Am I hiding this part of me because I’m afraid that if they see the real me, they won’t get me? They won’t like me anymore?

• Is this thing ~ part of me, interest, belief ~ meant to remain between myself and spirit? Is it meant to remain unseen, whilst it guides me through life? Will sharing it cost me something?

• What messages do I receive from the unseen realms that aren’t just for me?

Be honest. And allow it to change as you change.

^there was a time when this gal (me) would NEVER share pictures of myself on social media. I would hide behind my writing and pictures of nature. Now I regularly share photos of myself, and I sometimes fear I do it too much. Classic!

But I’m still gonna do it. Because I do want my people to see me.

A COLLECTIVE HOUSE // HOUSE OF SERVICE

Yep, the 12th House is a collective house.

Meaning: your placements in the 12th House are not just for you. They are also here to be in service of other people.

Likely people you don’t know personally but can impact on a deep level.

The collective.

You are here to be generous with your spirit, while maintaining boundaries (yes, you need to develop boundaries! You can say no! You can’t help everyone!).

You can help those who feel invisible.

Why? Because you’ve felt it.

You can speak to those who have also been misunderstood, afraid of stepping into their spirituality, afraid of owning their differences.

Why? Because you’ve been afraid (you still are).

You can be a safe space for people’s depths.

Why? Because your depths act as a mirror ~ a catalyst ~ for theirs.

You teach us that the unseen is just as valuable as the seen.

Why? Because you are in a relationship with the unseen. The void. The cave we must go in so that we come out clearer, more ourselves, more in-tune with our insights and creativity.

You see the unseen in a way that can change us.

You teach us that something isn’t valid just because you can physically grasp it with both hands.

You teach us that something doesn’t need to make sense for it to be true.

And, yeah, you may not show up every day to speak about it.

You may not even use words to explain it.

You may not explain it at all.

You may not be the loudest or the most consistent.

But it’s not about consistency, really.

It’s not about constantly churning out shiny, marketable ideas and concepts.

It’s about what your soul is devoted to. It’s about truth. It’s about what makes your spirit sing.

Because I promise you, as a 12th Houser myself, that when your soul is in it, you will keep showing up. Over time.

When you start believing that people need what you’ve kept hidden away, you will be brave enough to unlock the cage.

Even if you only crack the door open a tiny bit to begin with.

Even if you need to regularly scurry back into the cave.

Even if most people won’t see you clearly. (Side note: people’s misperceptions of you can only hurt you if you believe them)

Please give us a peek.

Choose your visibility.

Share morsels of that rich inner world with us.

Let it feel scary. The fear doesn’t mean you should stop.

So, 12th Houser, will you step out of the shadows?

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Until next time,

Sophie x

But, WHY?

That’s what I’ll be sharing with you today: why we never fully heal and why that can actually be a liberating thing to accept (and this isn’t just toxic positivity, I promise!).

So, let’s start by getting to know Chiron: The Wounded Healer.

CHIRON speaks to wounds and suffering: individual and collective.

The wounds that make our skin crawl. Make us cringe, hide, grimace, embarrassed.

Think of a part of you that you’re ashamed of. That makes you feel less than, helpless, damaged. That’s Chiron’s realm.

But we want the cure. And maybe we’ve been promised a cure. We want to be fixed. To never feel like that again!

And maybe we’ve been told we can be completely fixed. That it’s possible.

We dream of a reality in which we don’t have this wound. In which we’re not damaged.

But that reality doesn’t come because there is no cure.

There’s a healing process. Not a perfect end destination.

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~ checks Venus sign compatibility ~

Don’t get me wrong, Venus plays a huge part in your relationships. Venus speaks to what makes you feel loved! How you give love and how you want to receive love.

Venus = how comfortable we feel receiving (love, money and affection).

It’s also how we show affection! Our unique love language.

Your Venus placement (don’t forget the house and aspects too!) is what makes you so damn attractive to the right people. Yeah, not just anyone.

Venus is your magnetism! Your beauty (and we’re not just talking looks). Your allure. What attracts people (and money) to you.

The type of people you are attracted to.

But, Venus isn’t the only thing that explains our relationship needs.

It would be convenient though, right?

This ONE placement is the answer!

Funnily enough, Astrology ~ and life ~ doesn’t work like that.

^in true Aquarius Venus fashion, my friends are everything to me. And any romantic relationship also needs a deep foundation of friendship.

YOUR MOON

Oh, this is where it gets interesting.

Your moon is your heart.

Your moon is your deep inner world. The side of you that people are bloody privileged to be exposed to. It’s private. It only comes out when you feel safe (or really emotionally triggered!).

Your moon is what you need to feel safe with someone. Going through a tough time? It’s your moon that gets you through it. Feeling unstable? It’s your moon that grounds you again.

But, the thing is: your moon is subconscious. So, we often don’t even realise we need something because it’s not as obvious!

Our sun? Conscious. We know we are our sun.

Our moon though? It can get neglected. We feel it but sometimes we’re not conscious of just how much we need to nurture that part of us.

Just how much we need the people in our lives to accept and nurture that part of us.

We yearn for something but we push it down. Perhaps we learned to do this in childhood (the moon is our relationship with our mother, after all!).

Ok, let’s dive into each moon sign: what you yearn for and what makes you feel loved.

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Aries Moon? You yearn to have your passion matched. To feel so alive in your connections. No flatness. No stagnancy. Pure enthusiasm. Directness! To you, love doesn’t include lying or pretending you feel a certain way. It’s upfront. It’s ride-or-die. But, you will not sacrifice your independence. You’re here to play with life. Together and solo.

Taurus Moon? Sure, you yearn for the familiar moments. The cosy snuggles, the simple rituals. But, what you really yearn for is to feel so deeply safe with someone. Secure. Your body lets out an exhale. They add more calm to your life. They are present. Quality time + physical touch + stability = oh, yes. No games. No inconsistency. No questioning their loyalty. You’re cherished. Valued.

Gemini Moon? You yearn for an intellectual connection that keeps you on your toes! You continue to discover new layers of each other. They interest you and keep your interest. And, most importantly? They take a deep interest in you. What you’re into! How you think. It’s curiosity you yearn for. Playfulness. Great conversation! They don’t hold you to who you were last week. Come on, you’re a shapeshifter!

Cancer Moon? You yearn to be cared for. Really cared for. Your comfort matters as much as theirs. Your heart is as important to them as it is to you. They’ll protect you. They create a safe space for you to come out of your crab shell. They don’t need you to be ‘nice’ and sweet all the time. There’s space for your moods. There’s space for every side of you. There’s genuine closeness, affection, love. An intuitive thread between the two of you.

Leo Moon? Sure, you yearn to be celebrated. For your creative gifts, for your talents, for what you’re capable of. But what you really yearn for is to be celebrated for just being You. To be seen. Really seen. Appreciated. You can be big, bold, dramatic, joyful! You can express yourself freely. You don’t need to tone down or be smaller. You can turn it all the way up.

Virgo Moon? You yearn for someone who remembers and notices. Who makes an effort. The little things that are actually very big things. Your current fixation. Your coffee order. Your quirks. Devotion is your heart’s desire. No uncertainty. You know how they feel (you feel it in your body too). You feel considered. They keep their word.

Libra Moon? You yearn to be cherished. Valued. There’s no doubt how special and important you are to them. Thoughtful, romantic gestures? Oh, yeah. You’re truly invited into their life. You’re not left out. You crave harmony, peace, equality. But, you can actually benefit from people who remind you to not settle for less because you’re afraid of confrontation.

Scorpio Moon? You yearn for soul-merging. When it’s not just about what’s vocalised, but what’s felt in every cell of your soul. The love, the passion, the loyalty, the trust that’s felt. They’ve got your back. You feel safe to open up. Nothing is too dark or taboo. All sides of you ~ all of your reinventions ~ are accepted. They keep your secrets. They treat your trust like it’s something precious (it is). You don’t need to shrink your power or drive. They hold it and mirror it back.

Sagittarius Moon? You yearn for passion. An expansive love. Larger than life. Larger than limits. Love that makes you believe in yourself, and life, more! Love that doesn’t clip your wings or limit your freedom. Love that says ‘let’s go on adventures together’. You yearn for deep belly laughter and silliness mixed with intellectual, philosophical chats that go on for hours! Your heart desires honesty, optimism, a spiritual love.

Capricorn Moon? You yearn for love that’s constant. You still get your solitude, time to decompress and do your own thing. But, you know they’re not going anywhere. It’s secure. Stable. For the long haul. Commitment is your vibe. Accountability. You don’t do fluffy. Be real or be gone! False promises? Disrespect? Absolutely not. They show up for you. They support what’s important to you. They respect your boundaries and your privacy.

Aquarius Moon? You yearn for someone to love every weird and wonderful inch of you! Nothing is too odd. They make it easy for you to be Yourself. Safe to be Yourself. There’s a strong foundation of friendship. Together, you create a mental connection that feels like two sparks of electricity coming together! ‘We’re in this together’. They respect you, your ideas, your visions, the way you want to live. They can think for themselves! They don’t blindly follow rules.

Pisces Moon? You yearn for an other-worldly kinda love. When did things get so serious?! You yearn for true romance! Whimsy! Magic! People who bring this out in you. People who seek out awe and wonder. People who love your sense of awe and wonder! ‘This song made me think of you’ = dream. ‘I believe in you’ = heart swells. They create space for you to feel it all. To be all of yourself.

Perhaps you convinced yourself these needs don’t matter as much. That they won’t get met.

But, what if you owned them and expressed them?

What if you brought them out from the subconscious and into the conscious?

How great could love get then?

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^my Scorpio moon reads a lot of books (hey, I’ve also got a bunch of Pisces and 12th House energy so I love escapism and romance!) with intense, devoted, soul-connected love.

I love fantasy books with ‘mate bonds’. I love books where they’re utterly obsessed with each other but also encourage each other to be the most powerful version of themselves.

(and I do crave this IRL too! Along with my Aquarius Venus + Virgo DSC needs)

THE CONCEPT OF ‘COMPATIBILITY’

Something I will keep preaching: someone isn’t right for you just because they have a ‘compatible’ Venus or Moon sign.

E.g. you have an Aries Venus and they have a Leo Moon or a Sagittarius Venus.

So they must be your perfect match! Fire and fire is good!

IT’S NOT AS SIMPLE AS THAT.

Don’t just trust what’s in their chart.

Trust how you feel with someone. Trust how loved, heard, seen, cherished you feel. Trust how safe you feel to communicate your needs.

Trust how well your unique needs and quirks are nurtured - even if they go against the norm.

Trust how safe, able and free you are to be your full self.

Yes, it would be great if someone had the perfect chart for us.

But life is hardly ever perfect, is it?

Someone can have the most ‘perfect’ chart yet they’re not embodied in the potential of their placements at all.

Yeah, they could have a Scorpio Venus which is perfect for your Pisces Venus! But they’re controlling (a shadow side of Scorpio) and sceptical. You feel caged. Your whimsy isn’t able to come out. Your dreaminess is stifled.

*this is person dependent! Don’t believe all the Scorpio Venus (or just Scorpio!) hate. They can be the most loyal, deeply loving, ride-or-die people to have in your corner.

OWN YOUR CONTRASTS

A thing I absolutely adore about Astrology?

It shows you why you want this and that.

We are complex, layered, nuanced beings!

Yeah, our Venus placement highlights a core relational need.

Yet our Moon shows something else entirely.

Can it be confusing? Can it make us worry we’ll never be able to get every single need met?

Absolutely. And I won’t lie to you and say there is someone out there who ticks off every single thing you desire and need.

But I also don’t believe we need to sacrifice core needs.

Let’s say you have a Taurus or Scorpio moon (or Venus) and you need loyalty. I do not believe you need to sacrifice that.

But, perhaps you need to meet some of your own needs.

Taurus moon and Venus: be so loyal to your own needs and values that you won’t let anybody walk all over them (you).

OWN YOUR YEARNINGS

Don’t be the cool-girl if that’s not you.

Don’t give someone immediate access to you if you know you’re a slow-burn.

Yeah, you might not attract as many people. You may give less people a chance.

But that’s creating even more space for the right people. The soul-matches.

And I’m not just speaking about romantic partners. Friends too.

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Sophie x

True! But that doesn’t mean they go willingly.

They just usually wait for things to get so fucking stagnant. So stale. So old.

And then they change. And, I mean really change.

Things feel so soul wrenchingly wrong that they’re forced to transform.

It’s like they need to reach the absolute pits of a situation before their Phoenix Rising Mode is activated.

And, you know what? Maybe they do. Maybe they do need to reach the lowest low so they decide NEVER AGAIN.

Or, maybe they need to learn to move earlier (they are a fixed sign after all, so you know they’re stubborn!). To let go when their intuition whispers ~ or shouts ~ at them.

To stop waiting until they feel less afraid.

Well, I have good news for you!

This Full Moon is giving you the boost of power to CHANGE NOW.

What feels stale? What is feeling so mundane and familiar that you’re walking around with a storm cloud above your head when you do it?

What used to fit but now feels like you’re wearing a skin that doesn’t belong on your body anymore?

What are you afraid of that you also yearn for?

This is what the Scorpio Full Moon is supporting you with.

And know this: a Scorpio Full Moon is never just an ending. It’s a metamorphosis.

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^I bought this snake ring in Sydney last year to symbolise necessary death & rebirth! Signed, my natal Scorpio moon.

FUTURE YOU IS CALLING

The Full Moon is at 11 degrees of Scorpio (11 degrees = an Aquarius degree!). The rulers of this moon are Pluto (which is in Aquarius!) and Mars (which is in Aries!).

So, what does this actually mean?

Your FUTURE (Aquarius) is tied to this Full Moon.

Your FREEDOM (Aries and Aquarius) is tied to this Full Moon.

You need to be BRAVE (Aries).

This moon is also trining the Pisces North Node. The North Node = destiny.

The Pisces North Node = destined shifts when you trust your intuition, even if you don’t have a neat path forward. Even if you don’t have tangible evidence that it will all ‘work out’.

So, this moon isn’t just about today. It’s also about Future You (the you from next week or even 80 year old you!).

No pressure, hey?

The thing that feels so frustratingly done, dull, dead?

The fear that’s hyper-present and keeping you from your power?

The thing that’s run its course?

Say goodbye to it. Burn it. Decide it won’t burden you any longer.

Future You is NOT saying ‘let go of all of your fear so that you can transform!’

Future You is saying ‘DO IT AFRAID IF YOU HAVE TO. JUST FUCKING DO IT. DON’T WASTE THIS ONE LIFE!’

Because, one thing more people need to know about Scorpio energy? Scorpios are here to live as though they could die next month.

Intense, I know. It’s fitting though, right?!

You see, Scorpios are walking this life with death. Living with death.

They must live so fully that if they died next month they would have zero regrets.

Living, dying, grieving and being reborn so that they can live as truly, fully, powerfully as they possibly can.

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^a journal I made (at Wheel of Fate in Edinburgh!) in March to represent the never-ending cycles of life and death. The skull (death) + the flowers and animals (life).

STOP RESISTING CHAOS

Okay, hear me out.

The truth is: many of us are resisting change because we fear it will uproot our lives too much! (Hey, Scorpio Full Moon during Taurus Season!)

We fear it will be too uncomfortable.

We fear it will be too chaotic.

And, guess what?

Maybe it will be uncomfortable! Maybe it will be messy, chaotic, a lil stressful, unknown!

Maybe it will stretch you.

(It definitely will)

But, let me respond to that maybe with 2 notes:

1. If your soul deeply yearns for it, that’s a signal that you can handle the potential upheaval. Did you forget how damn resourceful Scorpios are?! They can handle any chaos that comes their way.

2. What if your fear is stirring this potential chaos into such a big deal as a form of self-protection? As a way of keeping you in your cosy little comfort zone? (which isn’t actually comfortable, btw. Because it’s stifling, suffocating, soulless. It’s just familiar)

I’m gonna leave you with that.

Happy Full Moon.

Until next time,

Sophie x

I’m going to tell you the story of how I’ve become successful in my own right, even though I reject most traditional business advice.

Maybe it will inspire you. Maybe it won’t. But, I feel there are people out there who don’t believe they can do it because they don’t fit the mould of a ‘good business owner’.

Well, guess what? Neither do I.

On paper I’m a bad business owner (and, honestly, my Aquarius stellium ~ especially my Aquarius Mars ~ gets off on this!).

I’m not naturally motivated. I struggle with discipline. I’m inconsistent. I love and need to hide in my cave frequently.

Yet I have built a ‘successful’ business. (I’ve written ‘successful’ like this because it really depends on what success means to you)

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^an example of ‘success’ for me: being able to treat my sister, niece and nephew to a dreamy weekend away!

LET’S BE REAL FOR A SEC

Yeah, I feel successful now.

But it wasn’t easy (and it still isn’t at times).

I first quit my job in the summer of 2021, my business didn’t take off and I (reluctantly!) got a temp job for 3 months.

I felt like it was a massive step back. I was embarrassed! I made such a big deal about leaving the 9-5 world! I was FREE. Right?

Well, wrong. For the time being.

So, I made the uncomfortable decision to choose my future-fulfilment over my short-term embarrassment.

And, honestly, I put in the work (yes, I was in my Saturn Return! Saturn says ‘you better work, bitch!’). I would work at my day-job and then do Human Design readings in the evenings. On Saturdays too.

I went fully self-employed after those 3 months were up in January 2022.

And it worked. I felt so accomplished. I was making great money! My IG grew from 1k to 20k. It felt right!

Until it didn’t.

Saturn in Pisces was conjunct my Pisces sun in 2023 and I had a huge direction shift. What used to light me up (sun) stopped lighting me up. But, in classic unaligned Scorpio moon fashion, your girl clung to what wasn’t working.

Oh, I clung on for dear life.

I had made Human Design such a core part of my identity that I couldn’t see beyond it. I couldn’t see another path. I was a Human Design Teacher and Analyst!

So, why the hell wasn’t it working?

How could it go from feeling so right ~ so expansive, so freeing, so me ~ to feeling so wrong?

Luckily, these questions would be answered and things would get better. They’d get even better than I could have imagined.

HOT TIP: do not make your work and career (you know, what you do) your entire identity! Love it. Immerse yourself in it! Take pride in it. But don’t make it your everything.

^an example of ‘success’ for me: frolicking for hours in beautiful pockets of nature on a ‘work’ day.

BECOMING AN ASTROLOGER

Months after the crumbling of my Human Design career, I had a huge realisation.

ASTROLOGY.

I’d been into it for years! Studying it. Deeply understanding myself and the people in my life through it.

But, I felt so much fear.

There were already so many amazing, successful Astrologers out there.

What could I add? Why would people choose to work with me? Did I really want to try again and fail again?

Funnily enough, this realisation hit me like a freight train on the Scorpio New Moon in November 2023. The theme: new beginnings that scare you but you know you’d deeply regret if you didn’t claim them.

So, I started. I let my fears, insecurities and doubts join me for this fresh start.

And it’s been a magical ride.

A magical ride that wouldn’t have been possible had I not:

1. been brave (and delusionally optimistic!) enough to start (even though I had multiple family members continuously tell me I should just stick to my safe former HR job).

2. swallowed my embarrassment and got a short-term job to support my longer-term visions (you know: a temporary ‘step back’).

3. experienced the colossal death and rebirth of my Human Design business that I thought was it for me.

4. decided to say F YOU to all the BS rules we’re told we need to follow to be successful in business.

5. believed in my passion (my soul) more than my fear.

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GENERIC ADVICE

If you’re overwhelmed with the noise of what you should do in business, please take this advice:

UNFOLLOW THE PEOPLE WHO CREATE THAT OVERWHELM IN YOUR MIND.

Yep, I’m shouting ⚔️

And, listen, I know there are incredible business coaches out there!

But the ones who tell you that you MUST do this one specific thing or you won’t succeed? That you must follow the exact formula that worked for them?

Unfollow those ones.

Remember that you get to curate your online world!

The best thing I did was unsubscribe from that noise and tune into my own gifts.

And, let’s be real: face my flaws, resistance and blind spots too.

Because it’s one thing to know what you’re great at. What makes you feel alive! Powerful!

And it’s a whole other thing to know what’s getting in the way of you excelling at what you’re great at. The way you’re getting in your own way.

(Your birth chart is amazing for highlighting all of this, btw!)

Instead of just blindly following generic advice, ask yourself if the advice actually aligns with you. With the type of life and business you want.

Yeah, that person you follow is cool. Impressive. Successful.

But they’re not you.

^an example of ‘success’ for me: not having to ask for permission to take time off. Here I am enjoying an espresso in Marrakesh! Yes, I have a Sagittarius Midheaven and my ideal career allows me the freedom to travel whenever I want.

BEING A BAD BIZ OWNER

I value my privacy. I value my creativity. I value my intuition. I value my freedom. I value my individuality.

I refuse to do something that doesn’t feel right (water signs = you’re feeling your way through life!), even if it makes ‘sense’.

So, no, I’m not just gonna do what someone else is doing. You know, what I should be doing.

No, I’m not gonna post daily.

No, I’m not gonna waste my life trying to be as productive as that other person.

No, I’m not gonna force myself to work when my entire body is saying ‘be, don’t do!’.

No, I’m not gonna expose my entire life for views and likes.

I need to take time off to retreat into my cave. I can’t be on all the time.

In true 12th Houser fashion I believe that ~ sometimes ~ the most productive thing you can do is go to the cinema. (try it 🤣)

That the best thing you can do for your future success is to take a fucking day off. To shut your mind off completely. To go frolic, wander, play, escape.

Do I believe this is always the best way? No.

Do I believe I could make more money if I just followed more generic business advice? Possibly.

But I won’t negate on my integrity and individuality. I just won’t.

It’s never led me astray.

One of my greatest lessons has been distinguishing between mental resistance (when my mind tries to talk me out of doing something I know I’ll be glad I just did!) and body wisdom (intuition).

Sometimes my mind tries to get out of the promises I made with myself. It tries to avoid responsibility (hey, Capricorn North Node!). And, listen, I’m very convincing.

Sometimes I’d just prefer to have fun (hey, 5th House South Node) than do the thing I know future me will thank me for.

The truth is, multiple things can be true at once (for me):

1. the best work and creations don’t come from force.

2. great things take work, commitment and devotion.

And, what if the goal wasn’t to be a perfect business owner?

What if it was to just do what I bloody love? To make a difference? To continuously learn and grow? To be able to live in alignment with my values? To feel purposeful?

To feel free?

What if time spent with your head in a book is the thing that inspires the wisdom you share with your IG community?

What if you stopped comparing yourself to that person who is running a ‘successful’ business online and created your own success?

What if you did the thing people have tried to talk you out of? Because your soul is begging you to go for it?

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As I wrap this up, I’m not entirely sure if I’ve told you how I run a successful business.

But, if nothing else, I hope I’ve shown you an alternative view and path to success.

I hope I’ve shown you that bumps along the road make for a great story. They’re not a sign you’re a failure.

If I can do it, I promise you can too. In your own way.

Until next time,

Sophie x

She was right.

I do thrive with something big and expansive to look forward to!

An adventure to dream about. A big shift to obsess over! Something concrete that I know is happening. That I can get excited about. Escape into.

It fuels me. Drives me. Makes me feel like I’m living with purpose!

I’m growing! Life really is worth living! (Scorpio moon things)

But I don’t have that thing right now.

I was on a long walk yesterday, voice noting my friend about how flat and frustrated I felt the day before. And it clicked.

I wasn't just dragging my feet by not making a decision or making a change that could shift this stagnant feeling.

It was deeper than that.

Although I tried to resist it, I had to come clean: I’m in the liminal space. Again.

^2 days before it clicked that I was back in the liminal space. Blissfully unaware. About to go smash back iced coffees with my friend and wander in a new city (Belfast!).

🌀 THE LIMINAL SPACE:

A transitional space. An in-between phase. You have one foot in your old life and the other foot is hanging mid-air, unsure of where to land.

You know you want a change! You know you’ve outgrown something. You have the mental awareness that your current life doesn’t quite fit! It lacks something.

But, you don’t have certainty. You don’t know the exact next thing.

(IT’S ANNOYING, I KNOW)

You know you’re not where you were (old life).

Yet you’re not in alignment with the new life yet.

You’re in between two timelines.

Two possibilities. Two realms. Two versions of you.

And, you can try your best to think your way into that new timeline. You can try to control. You can belittle and berate yourself for not doing enough. For not making the change happen! How lazy, how unproductive, how floaty of you!

Yeah, you can do all of that. But it won’t bloody work.

Do you wanna know why?

Because you can’t think your way into a solution only your soul can provide.

ASTROLOGY x THE IN BETWEEN

This liminal space? The energy most people on this Earth have experienced in recent years? It’s a lesson (a fucking frustrating one, if you ask me!) of the collective North Node in Pisces + South Node in Virgo.

The South Node = sped up spiritual growth via a loss, ending or closure. What we’re being asked to re-work, let go of, release, loosen our grip on.

But the South Node is devilishly tempting. It’s familiar. Known. Comfortable in the moment because short-term ‘comfort’ doesn't require change or growth.

It’s karmic. That’s why we don’t just learn the lesson once. We learn it time and time again (so, don’t feel like you’ve failed if you’re back in another liminal space) until the karmic debt is paid.

Virgo South Node = clinging to control and certainty, overthinking, productivity as a form of escapism, nitpicking, doubt, mental anxiety, over-analysing our next steps, needing things to be tidy (to make sense).

Feeling this? You’re not going crazy. You’re not doing it wrong.

These Virgo traits and traps are being highlighted and heightened to get you to LET GO 💨

To leave that heavy shit at the door and stride through the door of SURRENDER.

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THE S WORD

Surrender, really?

So, what? You’re meant to do nothing? Just wait for your life to change itself?

Surely we should take control! Fix! Sort! Create order! Take charge!

Before you scoff (again) at the S word, ask yourself this: has the overthinking, analysing and clinging to control helped? Has it got you any closer to that next timeline?

Or, has it created more doubt, more anxiety, more self-criticism and way less presence and gratitude for the life you currently live?

I thought so.

So, what’s the harm in trying another way?

What’s the harm in giving it up to Spirit?

What if you admitted you feel lost, uncertain and confused as hell?

What if you SURRENDERED to where you are? Let it all out. Cried, furiously journaled, did nothing at all (a Nothing Day is one of my fave forms of self-care), screamed, stopped pretending?

Because, by surrendering, you’ll see if what you’re clinging to is even aligned for you. If what you thought you wanted is actually for you OR if it’s just giving you a false sense of security and certainty.

It’s way scarier to say you have no bloody clue what you want. No clue what’s next. All you know is you want different. Better. Something that feels more You.

Yeah, it’s scary. Yeah, it’s not a pretty space to be in.

But it’s also where possibility brews.

So, what if you embraced the drift?

What if you said: show me how good, how expansive, how unknown and magical it can get? I promise I’ll let go. Now, you do your thing (in divine timing, of course 🌚).

What if you let go of what makes sense and open up to a world of possibilities?

Because what if you knew things could change in an instant?

What if the reason this liminal space is dragging on for so long is because you’re clinging to the most logical path for your life?

The path that is the easiest to explain to others?

NOTHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO?

To end, I’m circling back to what I spoke about at the beginning: how I feel most purposeful when I have something to look forward to.

So, what do you look forward to when you don’t have something concrete to look forward to?

YOU LOOK FORWARD TO THE POSSIBILITY.

You don’t need to know what that next thing is to look forward to it.

You don’t need the certainty to be excited.

You don’t need everything to be wrapped up in a neat little bow for you to fall in love with your future ~ unknown ~ timeline.

You don’t need absolute clarity to be optimistic about what’s next.

You’ve gotta flirt with the possibility. Not the certainty.

Flirt with the tension between you and the change that’s brewing.

Show it you’re not gonna force it. Show it how excited you are for it.

Shift from anxious attachment to secure (ish) attachment with what comes next.

Enjoy your life in the meantime! Why are you waiting for things to be perfect to get into a state of awe, wonder, joy, passion, pleasure and optimism?!

The thing you can look forward to = whatever the hell is coming next.

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You’re not alone in this liminal space. We’re in good company.

Until next time,

Sophie x

Where is it? Why hasn’t it happened for me yet? Why must I have another challenging experience? Will it ever happen?

We all have our it. It could be the soul friendships you’re waiting for. The community. The financial security and abundance. The creative expression. The home. The career. The ‘success’ and recognition. The confidence!

You see other people thriving in the area of life that alludes you. But, for you? It. Just. Hasn’t. Happened. Yet. (will it ever? I bet you wonder and worry about that)

So, obviously, you’re doing something wrong. You must be! That online dating coach said that you will find a man if you do these 3 things! If you get into a certain energy. If you morph yourself into what a man wants. You know, because all men want the same things! And changing yourself to fit into a generic standard works and will lead to fulfilling relationships!

(I hope you can sense my tone here)

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SATURN: YOUR OWN TIMELINE

The truth is: whatever Saturn touches in your birth chart can bring delays. Saturn is the God of Time. Saturn says ‘you can’t have this thing yet because you’re not the version of you that is right for it yet’.

There’s more growth to do first. Maturing to take place. Mountains to climb.

But, this is not to punish you! It’s to prepare you. Saturn says: ‘how much do you really want this? Are you willing to wait until it’s the real deal? Are you willing to do the necessary work first?’

It’s frustrating though, isn’t it? Especially when we are expected to reach certain milestones by certain times. By 30 we should have it all ‘figured out’, right? The partner, the home, the job, the money, the happiness.

And if we haven’t figured it out yet then we have failed.

But, the way I see it is: it’s these heavy expectations and invisible timelines that are the real problem.

Not the ‘delays’.

Well, the delays are a bit of a problem! Because when we really want something we don’t want to wait!

And, here’s what can happen as we wait: Saturn can make us pessimistic. Because we then worry we’ll never have that thing. We’ll become dried up. The thing won’t even want us anymore! We’ve missed it. It’s passed us by. Maybe we’re better off without it (this is your fear talking).

You see: Saturn asks us to mature, to raise our standards, to grow up. To grow into who we are truly meant to be. But, not to harden so much that we don’t let ourselves receive. Not to become so cold and cynical that we close ourselves off.

Because that’s not growth. That’s over-protection.

MY OWN DELAYS

I have my natal Saturn conjunct my 12th House Aquarius Venus and Mars. I also have Saturn squaring my Scorpio moon. And, as I write this I’m on a Saturn Descendant line (astrocartography speak!) in Sydney (pictured!).

It’s safe to say that I absolutely know delays and frustration in my love life. Although I was in two long-term relationships in my 20s I’ve been single since early 2019. And when I first found out that I would likely find aligned love (romantic and friendship) ‘later in life’ I didn’t believe it! I thought it was nonsense. But, deep down, I actually felt quite sad about it - especially as a romantic who reads copious amounts of love stories (hey, I’m a Pisces with a 12th House stellium!).

But, it’s also safe to say that it makes perfect sense to me now - at 33 years old.

It hasn't happened yet for a reason.

I may have been in relationships in my 20s but they were miles away from the type of relationship I crave now. The type of relationship that’s aligned for me. And not because my exes were ‘bad’ people or treated me poorly. I was actually lucky in that they were very good people.

But, I didn’t know myself at all. I was miles away from who I am now - who I was intended to be in this life. I bended what I wanted to be loved. I hid so many parts of myself (12th House Venus + Scorpio moon!) because I was afraid that if they saw who I really was then they wouldn't love me. Because I didn’t love me - at all.

I had a lot of ‘work’ to do. I have needed to own (still am - it’s a process!) what I actually want and desire in love - even if it’s unconventional (Aquarius). Even if it’s weird. Even if it goes against what we should want. Even if it’s hard to fit into a neat little box.

BUT, DO YOU KNOW WHAT GIVES ME HOPE?

Sure, Saturn is aspecting my Venus. But Venus isn’t just love. It’s self-worth, beauty, money, our values.

And, while I’m fresh out of a frustrating romantic experience after just 10 days in Sydney (yes, the Saturn Descendant line is not playing around - and neither am I apparently!) I’ve been reflecting on how I may not have what I thought I’d have at this stage in my life in terms of romantic love - but I am living a whole new timeline in terms of self-worth and money.

I never thought I’d value myself like I do now (don’t get me wrong though: I absolutely do still have wobbles with this but I’ve come a long way!). I never thought I’d have this kind of financial security and abundance (this still feels weird to say).

So, if those sides of Venus have come to me in the last few years due to the work I’ve done then I know the love will come when I’m ready for it. And, besides, I haven’t actually been open to real romantic love.

That’s the raw truth. In my head I’ve been open to love. I fantasise (Aquarius 12th House Venus: the fantasy can be better than the reality!) about love.

But, remember what I said earlier in this post?

Saturn can harden you. And I was hardened. I closed myself off. I read about love in my books (still do!) but was completely closed off in my real life due to challenging experiences I had in 2022-2023.

Saturn brings fear and, yes, I was afraid of being hurt. Of being completely myself and still not being good enough.

But F that.

This dating experience in Sydney has taught me that I can have a frustrating experience and let it be a lesson - not an excuse to throw my walls straight back up.

And if it (aligned love) happens in my later 30s, 40s, 50s, 60s because that’s when it’s meant to be: then so be it. For now, I’m lucky enough to have love in many other forms and I’ll continue to tend to those loves.

So, for any of you who also feel delayed in love: remember that it’s not just you who is involved! There’s another human out there who has to be ready for you too.

Just because it (even if your it isn’t romantic love) hasn’t happened yet: it doesn’t mean it never will.

What if it’s worth the wait?

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Thank you so much for taking the time to soak up my first Substack post!

If this post speaks to you, I would love to hear your thoughts and feelings on delays, invisible timelines & expectations, Saturn and whatever comes up for you as you read this.

Until next time,

Sophie x